The break up
11:09 PM
Sunday, July 31, 2005
On the 27-06-2005 , thurday. I broke off with him. In return i was hit at the back thrice. My reason was that i like another guy. It was a vaild reason for him to accept this break up since the relationsip was open. I've seen how weak his heart was then as he was trying to maintain the relationsip. Saying that he wouldnt find another girl just to keep me and stuff. Next he said that he would feel miserable if he would to do that. How do you want me to accept since you will be unhappy even being together from what you say?
The whole night was depressing for both of us. Being one another defending their own thoughts and actions.
We bang to Miao qin when the train stoppped that paya lebar, unknowingly , she commented that i am so sweet to accompany from work
Ample sms from him came in since then ..
Eyes swollen.. Who cares
11:15 PM
Sunday, July 17, 2005
My eyes were swllon when i woke up today. My tears roll down my cheek when i was in the bus after tution. A sunday alone when i am hungry and wanted accompany. Things had changed after he started working. Start to giv excuses like tired and bored . Why?
Does he know that i cried in the bus today? Does he know that i was having lunch alone? NO, cos he din care.
I am going for camp tmr, he din even know i am goign pualu ubin until yesterday after i change my nick. What the..For the whole of today, he din try to contact me when he is free, why is he not worrying about me goign to ubin? Not worryign that i cant call him and stuff? Does he still care about me?
Today is my grandma's bday. My realative keep asking me where is he. How come havent been seeing him .. this and that. i almost started tearing. I dunno what to tell them.
Things are so different now .
until now , he still never reply me after my last two sms. What the fuck.....
i am goign for the camp becos of him, i wanna avoid him. I want to stop being so emtional.
Relationship
2:50 PM
Saturday, July 16, 2005
Had a quarrel with him today, again. Over money, over meeting up and the list goes on...
A emotional person whose lives in a world with only him and herself. Where are all my friends?
He said :"why cant you go shopping with your girlriends?"
Sister said: "Go out with your friends other than him."
I think :" I just want to be with him"
Sobbing as I continuing typing here...
Why do I make myself so miserable?
Friends said before I am spoiler. I truly agree with that. I can even leave my family behind just because of his existence... ridicuious...
